Run Girl

Listen to your feet hit the pavement 

Focus on your breathing

Wipe the sweat from your brow

Feel the burn

Post while running

Get it done

PEMDAS

Please excuse my dear Aunt Sally, for she knows not what she does
She orders around the operations, from left to right just because
Please comes first, as it always should
Excuse is next, if you would
My dear can be dear my, Aunt Sally can be Sally Aunt
But never Aunt Sally before my dear, no you really can't
Follow her rules and you won't be mistaken for a jester or a fool
It's a simple problem really when you use the PEMDAS tool
So please excuse my dear Aunt Sally, or dear my Sally Aunt, if you must
And never go wrong, at least not in math, when in the rules you trust

The Cycle Continues

You make your list
Mulling over all the things you need to get done
An overwhelming sense of urgency washes over you
But you are mostly just overwhelmed
You look around at the mess
The pile of bills that need to be paid
The dishes that need to be washed
The laundry waiting to be folded
The mail without a stamp
You stand paralyzed by the neverending battle
You look back down at your list
No idea where to begin
So you don't
You distance yourself from the mess
Nothing gets crossed off the list
Procrastination wins
And the cycle begins again

Writing Prompt: Coffee

My hands wrap around my favorite mug

The frothy swirls on top draw me in

My lips await the warmth of this daily indulgence

My senses awaken with that first sip

The morning fills with heavenly thoughts as I find my way to the bottom of the cup

I am now ready to conquer another day

Where To Go

This road of comfort
Predictability
Convenience
Path of least resistance
The easy way
Simple
Safe
Feels all wrong
Don't know where to go
Forward
Back
Towards the unknown
Heart weighed down
Lost
Broken
Trying to find what's right
Thoughts running wild
Trapped
Free
The damage too severe

Unknown

The future is a scary place
You never know what you will to find there
You get caught up in your every day
Forgetting that tomorrow is just around the corner
Somehow it still sneaks up on you
It catches you off guard

You never think about your world changing
Until it changes before your eyes
Left with a cloud of dust in your path
Trying to see the light at the other end of the tunnel
There is nothing but the unknown ahead

Fraught with worry you find a way to dredge on
Taking it one step at a time
One foot in front of the other
Until the unknown becomes your every day

Yesterday feels like a distant memory
Tomorrow a long lost friend
Until it becomes the unknown once again

You never take your eyes off that light, though
You continue to move forward with unfaltered resilience

The unknown cannot compete with your strength

A Losing Battle

tangled up in a web of deceit
feeling confused
lost
trapped
emotions getting the better of me
pulling me further away from reality
trying so hard to hold on
my grasp slipping
my stomach twisting
my head reeling
everything feels so wrong
crashing
burning
losing me

Holding On to Thin Air

The silence is deafening
It leaves my mind racing
Nothing to hold on to
Grasping at thin air
Trying to hold my head high
Pretending I am not in pain
With a smile on my face
With tears in my eyes
I pick up the pieces
Being the woman everyone needs me to be
But I still need you

Operation Love

The easiest thing I've ever done is fall in love with you
Simple, unquestioned, raw emotion
Reality breaks through, complicating things
I watch you walk out that door
You look back for a moment
And even as my heart breaks, I know I would do it all over again

Untitled

You say the right things

You make me smile

Life before you was just okay

But with you,

I breathe a little deeper

I love a little longer

I see a little clearer

You brighten the night

You unbreak my heart

Being with you is easy

Insanity

stuck

screaming

can't break free

I need a release

love

lust

no worries

no expectations

truth

lies

Where am I going?

no where

I am stuck

I am screaming

I can't break free

insanity

Everyday Hero

hold my hand

crush my fears

touch my cheek

hide my tears

accept my flaws

treat me right

say you love me

save my life

Back to Square One

Something isn't right

My world has shifted

Everything that was

Cannot be found

Time stands still

My heart aches

What happened to us

Is haunting me

The past is repeated

My trust broken

Hurting again

Words cannot express

Seeing, Believing, Denying

I saw what I saw

I see what I see

The truth is not good enough for me

I know you are weak

I wish I were blind

cause my heart can't take another lie

so I live in denial

I prefer ignorant bliss

just wish you thought I was better than this

September 11th 2001 - Crystal Grey

This was a poem written by another military wife. While my words failed me, she came up with this.

Two towers came crashing down

Four planes hit the ground

Heroes fought

but Lives were Lost

They wanted to destroy us. They wanted us to go away.

But we are here to stay! We will not go away!

We will never forget that day!

You're Scared - Written in Jr High

This was written prior to me moving from Massachusetts to Ohio in 1995

I know the reason you broke up with me

You were scared our love again could be

You're afraid of getting hurt on the day

The day I have to move away

You're scared to lose me forever

You don't want to be hurt by me, not ever

The only thing you could possibly do

Was to hurt me, so it wasn't you

So you turned around and left me

Now I think I finally see

You didn't really want or love me

You just went and used me

But I understand and I see

You did it to make me happy

So Pathetic

As I am going through my binder of old poetry, I realize just how pathetic I really was. HA! I wrote the cheesiest, sappiest, most ridiculous poems for the most random things. Mostly they were written about getting dumped by my boyfriend of the week or about how in love I was with said boyfriend of the week.

That makes me sound bad! I know! Really, though, they were all about boyfriends and break ups and moving. And in all honesty, they were mostly about the same few boyfriends... the important ones. The ones I actually remember now and talk to still.

However, there are a few about boyfriends that I don't even remember any more and they make me sound like a pathetic lost puppy dog. I must have put my mother through hell in my awkward, love-centric, I am going to die if you don't love me tween & teenage years. And how ironic that now I am putting the rest of the world through those same years with this blog.

I hope if nothing else you can at least get a kick out of the silliness that I wrote down on paper. The ridiculousness that spewed from my foolish love sick heart. I know I will!

What Did I Do Today?

I found this here while browsing the web (I did not write this but it is oh so true for so many of us that I had to share)

Today I left some dishes dirty,
The bed got made around 3:30.
The diapers soaked a little longer,
The odor grew a little stronger.
The crumbs I spilled the day before
Are staring at me from the floor.
The fingerprints there on the wall
Will likely be there still next fall.
The dirty streaks on those windowpanes
Will still be there next time it rains.
Shame on you, you sit and say,
Just what did you do today?

I held a baby till she slept,
I held a toddler while she wept.
I played a game of hide and seek,
I squeezed a toy so it would squeak.
I pulled a wagon, sang a song,
Taught a child right from wrong.
What did I do this whole day through?
Not much that shows, I guess that's true.
Unless you think that what I've done,
Might be important to someone
With deep blue eyes and soft blonde hair,
If that is true...I've done my share

Work Randomness - 1998

Written when I was working at Showcase Maumee

First there's Sparky, also known as McQueen
He's quite a hottie and one of the nicest I've seen
Then there is Scooby, this is Mr. Lewis
He's definitely wacky, but he's not Jewish
We now come to G, can you guess who this is?
He's the nice big guy, but not who I want to kiss
And then we've got Coolio, his real name is Eric Moore
Who wants a piece of that? You can forever scream "more"
Finally we've got Chuckie, the big LoL Mr. Pachin
He's always laughing at someone, I wonder who he's chasin'
There are more managers but I am lost on nicknames
Someone help me out here, I want to play some games

Why

Written sometime in jr high

Another night I go to bed crying
Another day I wake up trying
Trying to get your love for me
Why won't you fulfill my fantasy?

I sit here and wonder, why, oh why
What did I do to make you say goodbye?
I don't understand the way you think
It didn't help going to that shrink

Another night I'll go to bed and cry
Another day I'll wake up and try
But why do I waste my time on you?
You'll never make my dreams come true